Well i am week 18 into my ww journey, i have so far lost 11.3 kilos and i am so proud of myself it has been a big achievement. although i am still battling with emotional eating, today i was feeling flat - so i did eat some potato chips , after i ate them i felt bad, i felt guilty and unhappy. Why was i doin this to myself? why do we do it to ourselves? I need to start treating myself the way i treat others, with love and support and encouragement. I am my own worst enemy. I need to stop my emotional eating by first, acknowledging that i am doing it and when i am doing it, replace it with a non-food behaviour, whether it be go for a walk, read a book, do something i enjoy, that is the only way i can see myself overcoming this battle. Do others battle with the same emotional eating? What do you all do to overcome this (that's if you have overcome it). Or do we never overcome it? Is this a life long battle?
At least i can recognise when i am doing it, the thing is to stop doing it and do something more productive, even when i am doing it i say to myself, "don't sacrifice what you want for something you want right now!" gee its easier said than done. I know why i do it, i have made the connection, as a child i never knew it then , but food made me happy, it comforted me, i used it to protect myself and because of my childhood thats how i survived. I now know that in order to live a healthy and happy life i need to leave this emotional eating in the past and create for myself a new future, a future full of success and happiness and good health, i have to stop blaming the people in my past that made me feel like i wasn't worthy or accepted and use this to empower me to lead a life of full of happiness and success and life full of abundance. It was there problems that they transferred to me, it was not my fault, they were my guardians that were meant to caring for me, not making me feel left out. I realise that because of all this i have never felt worthy and it flowed into my adult life...and this which is a BIG revelation is what holds me back in every aspect of my life, i need to realise that I AM WORTHY, I AM WORTH IT! AND I DESERVE TO LIVE THE BEST LIFE I CAN AND REALISE MY FULL POTENTIAL AND ACHIEVE ALL MY DREAMS AND GOALS! It has only been the last few days where its starting to sink in that i am worth it despite my slip up today with the chips !!!
I have an appointment to get my hair done tomorrow so that will really boost my confidence!
Until next time take care
Renee xxx
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Oh Hunni!
Good on you for making this big revelation, sometimes getting things off your chest that you may have kept bottled up, can help you a million percent.
Don't worry about your small slip up, almost all of us have batted [and still battle] with emotional eating, but you have to be strong, and do as you said - go for a walk, read a book or do something you really enjoy. In the end it's totally in your favour so why not!!
You are one of the most wonderful people I've met, and you really deserve this, so stay strong sweetie - you know where I am if you ever need to chat about anything.
I really enjoyed talking to you last night too - how sad was Kate's story, it was awful, but I guess it doesn't give anyone the right to be mean to others...I'm just glad she overcame a big hurdle for herself too, maybe she will be much more enjoyable to watch.
I hope your day is going well sweetie, chin up.
Sending lots of *hugs* your way.
Lots of love
x
Ohhhhhh Renee...You are learning, remember you are only human, we all slip up and have trouble dealing with our emotional eating...but heyyyyyyy you are half way there by recognising it and looking at ways of dealing with it. So keep at it, remember you are worthy, you do deserve it.
Big hugs...
Jen xx
Hi Renee, though it was about time I came and had a look at your blog.
Don't beat yourself up over the occassional binge, we all have those, it just goes to show that we are human and as humans we have choices, sometimes we make bad ones but we have the intelligence to make wiser decisions and you have recognized that food is not the answer to everything. You have come so far on your journey in such a short time, keep at it and you will achieve your dreams, we will all be with you every step of the way cheering you on when you have losses, picking you up when you are feeling down, that's what friends are for. Keep on keeping on - like the energizer bunny girl - never give up your dream of being the person you want to be.
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