Well silly me i forgot to post last saturdaythe 7th of April 2007, sometimes its hard to get around to posting but i do want to keep it up to date to keep myself accountable! Last week i stayed the same weight being 91.6 kilos, two days leading up to my saturday weigh in i went through a box of 300 gram cadbury favourites with my boyfriend's help of course!!!! I didn't eat them all on my own but it would have had an affect on my weight staying the same! I was ok with it staying the same, so long as i dont gain i am happy!!! Although i would like to be getting to my mini goals a bit quicker!
I also wanted to discuss being 91.6kilos, i feel that being in the early nineties i get a bit complacent and scared its like being at the edge of a mountain and i just need to push myself that little bit further in order to absail down the side of the mountain. I feel like i haven't been in the 80's for at least a year and it seems a bit like a dream and a bit scary....im not sure why but around this weight i have noticed not only now but in the past i start sabotaging my weight loss efforts, its like i am subconsciously scared of going back into the 80's even though i really really REALLY want to get into the 80's then into the 70's and then to my goal weight! What is happening to me?? why do i sabotage my own weight loss efforts? why am i scared? It sounds so silly, but its what is happening to me at the moment. Has anyone else had this happen to them?
Well tomorrow being Saturday the 14th of April is my next weigh in, I am soooooooooooo scared that i wont lose only because of my self-sabotaging efforts this week, coupled with a week of going way over my points!!! Oh no....please please please i want to lose at my weight loss meeting tomorrow!!! I have been trying to rectify my overeating with exercise and trying to make healthy choices, i am still going to my meeting even though i am so so scared of gaining!!! I have to pick myself up , dust myself off and keep trying, i think because i am at this stage of self-sabotaging i may have to try something new..get some fun & excitement back into my life and into my exercise routine and really vary my foods so that i dont get bored and look for chips and lollies to eat!! I find tasty foods make me feel fuller for longer!
Until i post again, take care of yourselves, as i will be working hard at trying to take better care of myself
love you all
Love Renee xxx
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OH Renee
Now if you dont loose tomorrow dont give up on yourself..it will be because of Easter and all the other things you have done this week to sabotage yourself..we all have hurdles we need to overcome and as we jump down to the next bracket a bit of our self belief can suffer...so just stick with it..you will move through it..and if I can do this...then so can you...come on...start tracking again and get with it..and oh by the way all the best with tomorrows weigh in...it will be what it will be..it is now all about how you cope with whatever it is..remember I am only an email away..
Berrie xx
Thanks Berrie you are a wonderful friend :)
The one thing i always do is track even when i have been a bit naughty!!! Its true tomorrow's weigh in will be what it will be!!!
thanks
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