ITS MY BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!!!

Its been sooo long since my last post!! Its my 28th birthday & everytime its my birthday i always reflect on my life and over the past year to see whether my life is going in the direction i want it to go. And today i have realised that my life isnt going the way i want right now. I am not 100 percent happy, which is what i deserve to be, i hate my job, and i am not achieving all the goals i want to achieve. I want to be pursuing my singing, lose my excess weight and live the best life i can live and be the best person i can be. I deserve it!

I am very emotional right now, i am sad that my life isnt heading exactly where i want it to be going...on top of this the last two weeks have been difficult food wise, i havent been to my ww meeting for two weeks and i can feel that i have put on some weight. I will be going to my ww meeting this saturday, i need to get back on track, when i was losing weight it was one of the best things in my life, at least i was on my way to achieving one of my goals!

Right now i need support more than ever, i need to refocus, figure out exactly what my goals are and remember why i want to achieve my goals this may give me the boost of motivation that i am needing.

I have had alot of functions on the past two weeks, i have another two birthday parties this week, i need to start getting back on track, eating heathily, exercise more and focusing on my feelings so i can keep going down on the scales and start feeling better and better about myself in the meantime and most of all getting to my weight loss goal! That will be an exciting day for me to look forward to!!!

Renee xoxo

Realising my true worth xxx

Hi Everyone

After three weeks of not weighing in after being on a fantastic Queensland holiday, i went to my weight watchers meeting this morning and i weighed in! I was sooooo scared of what the scales were going to say! And what they said suprised me :) I had only gained 200 grams after 3 weeks of not weighing in , I was sooooooo happy because it could have been SOOOOOOOO much worse as i have been eating and drinking everything in sight ( i had a good time doing it !) also i hadnt been tracking and i hadn't been exercising as much as i usually do!!! I felt that i had lost my motivation and i felt out of control with my eating although I must have been making better choices than i thought...im not sure what happened... but i am so happy as i was expecting to gain at least half a kilo or more!!! I just wanted to share this with all my lovely friends here.

I have got my mojo back and i am as motivated and determined as ever to have a really healthy week this week! Full of good decisions and exercise. I am going to start thinking like a thin person.

take care lots of love Renee xxxooo

I lost 300 grams this week!!! YAY!

Hi everyone i lost 300 grams this week!!!YAY !!! SO i am exactly 90 kilos- i have so far lost 11.6 kilos , i hope to be an 8o's chicky babe this week :) This week when i went to the supermarket i saw a 10 kilogram bag of rice and i thought it would be good to pick it up and get a tangible feel for what 10 kilos feels like! Oh my gosh i picked it up and i didn't realise it would be soooooooo heavy..i picked it up and carried it around the supermarket with me- i can't belive i used to carry that plus more around on my body with me....my poor body- it is amazing what our bodies can cope with!!! I will never EVER let that weight get back on me again! I struggled to carry it for very long....(And i have lost 1.6kilos more than that!!!)

This week i am going to:

1) Exercise 6 out of 7 days
2)Drink at least 2 litres of water each day
3)Make healthy food choices

In the hope that all this gives me a good weight loss!!!


take care
Renee xox

I am still struggling with my Emotional Eating

Well i am week 18 into my ww journey, i have so far lost 11.3 kilos and i am so proud of myself it has been a big achievement. although i am still battling with emotional eating, today i was feeling flat - so i did eat some potato chips , after i ate them i felt bad, i felt guilty and unhappy. Why was i doin this to myself? why do we do it to ourselves? I need to start treating myself the way i treat others, with love and support and encouragement. I am my own worst enemy. I need to stop my emotional eating by first, acknowledging that i am doing it and when i am doing it, replace it with a non-food behaviour, whether it be go for a walk, read a book, do something i enjoy, that is the only way i can see myself overcoming this battle. Do others battle with the same emotional eating? What do you all do to overcome this (that's if you have overcome it). Or do we never overcome it? Is this a life long battle?

At least i can recognise when i am doing it, the thing is to stop doing it and do something more productive, even when i am doing it i say to myself, "don't sacrifice what you want for something you want right now!" gee its easier said than done. I know why i do it, i have made the connection, as a child i never knew it then , but food made me happy, it comforted me, i used it to protect myself and because of my childhood thats how i survived. I now know that in order to live a healthy and happy life i need to leave this emotional eating in the past and create for myself a new future, a future full of success and happiness and good health, i have to stop blaming the people in my past that made me feel like i wasn't worthy or accepted and use this to empower me to lead a life of full of happiness and success and life full of abundance. It was there problems that they transferred to me, it was not my fault, they were my guardians that were meant to caring for me, not making me feel left out. I realise that because of all this i have never felt worthy and it flowed into my adult life...and this which is a BIG revelation is what holds me back in every aspect of my life, i need to realise that I AM WORTHY, I AM WORTH IT! AND I DESERVE TO LIVE THE BEST LIFE I CAN AND REALISE MY FULL POTENTIAL AND ACHIEVE ALL MY DREAMS AND GOALS! It has only been the last few days where its starting to sink in that i am worth it despite my slip up today with the chips !!!

I have an appointment to get my hair done tomorrow so that will really boost my confidence!

Until next time take care

Renee xxx

I jumped a BIG hurdle this week

Hi to all my lovely friends reading this

Well its the end of week 17 for me and i lost 300 grams, the last two days have been an emotional battle for me. Yesterday i got on my scales and they told me i had gained 300 grams and i know that if i weigh myself at home on a friday morning and then i weigh myself again on a saturday morning (which i had done a couple of times) and i stay the same weight, so because my new digital scales told me that i had gained 300 grams on the friday I thought Oh no that means when i weigh in on a saturday morning at my ww meeting i will have gained. I didn't want to gain, i didnt want to ruin the extremely good efforts i have had up until now- i have been attending every ww meeting for 17 weeks, and have lost a total of 11.3 kilos- this morning i contemplated not going to my meeting because of the thought of a gain, it really messes with my mind, then i decided NO whether i gain or not, i am going, i have to make the commitment to myself to do this for myself to get to my goal weight, in the past this thought of a gain would have destroyed all my good efforts but this time around i am not going to let it stop me from achieving my ultimate goal of getting to my healthy weight range, this time i am going to do it, no excuses, Today forward i have decided that NOTHING is going to get in my way of achieving any of my goals. This is a massive light bulb moment for me, i know i can do this, and i will do this no matter what, i have to do this for myself, i deserve it and i am worth it!!! And you know what I am soooooooo glad i went to my ww meeting because i lost 300 grams....WOW im so proud of you Renee :)

take care
love and hugs
Renee

I Lost 1 Kilo this week & achieved my 10%!!! woot woot woot woot

Well week 15 on my weight watchers journey is over and I lost 1 kilo!! That is a total loss of 11 kilos!!!YAY I am very happy about that!!! Today i also achieved my 10% and got my star charm.It will be my lucky charm and help me get to goal sooner!

I am doing the happy dance!

Well my goals for this week are to be an 8o's chickybabe! Its been over 2 years since i have been in the 80's. So this will be a massive achievement for me :)

I'm feeling good

well im off to get ready to go watch a rugby league game in the rain!!!

take care
Love & hugs Renee xox

I weighed in this morning!

Well week 14 is over and week 15 of my weight watchers journey has just begun. I stayed the same this week which i am very happy about as i was sooooooo scared that i would gain! Well today is a new day, and i am going to make a fresh start. Today's ww meeting was about motivation, what motivates us. I found it very refreshing as i really need motivating! Well my steps in keeping myself motivated are :

1) I am going to find a picture of what i want my body to look like at 75 kilos and stick it on the fridge with a picture of me now so that i can visualise what i will look like at that weight, which is my goal weight. I think this will be very motivating for me, every time i open the fridge i will have the reminder of what my goal is, which will keep me focused on the goal. I have realised though that I need to enjoy the journey in getting to my goal, so far i have learnt sooooo much and i know i will learn so much more which will give me all the tools needed to keep my weight off for life and to maintain myself within my healthy weight range! ITS NEVER GOING TO GET A CHANCE TO GET BACK ON TO MY BODY! WOW i cant wait to get to goal!!!

2) I am also going to get out a pair of jeans from my wardrobe that are currently to tight, and each week i am going to try them on, so that as the weeks go by, i will soon be able to comfortably fit into them! YAY - I am going to try and imagine how i will feel when i will be able to comfortably get into those jeans!! WOW that will be exciting!

take care and i will talk to you all soon

Love Renee xox